What was I thinking????

Back in June, in an obvious emotionally unstable state, I decided to sign up for the Men's Health Urbanathlon. Not only did I sign up, but I decided to do it solo. I had several offers to join a relay team, but decided to go balls out and do it by myself. Idiot! Four months later, D-Day is near and I am petrified. I've been training, but not as hard as I should have. I'm worried not only about running nine miles, but getting through the obstacles in between. In addition, I can't stop thinking I'm going to embarrass myself. One of my biggest problems and something I need to work on is my embarrassment of being slow. As much as I love to have support, I hate when people have to stick around WAY after others have finished, waiting for me to cross the finish. I really need to stop feeling that way. Anyway, Saturday is the day. Yikes. I've been reassured by others who have done it in the past that I will have no problem doing it, but then I think "just how DO I get over hurdles and a wall taller than I am when I can't even do one pull-up?" Guess I'll find out in a few days!

Started the Paleo challenge yesterday. It's going okay so far, although I may need to enter rehab for my sugar addiction. The cravings are intense. It's definitely taken some planning on my part for meals, especially since I have no free time to cook and don't really like cooking. I'm feeling hungry often, but I'm not sure if I'm actually hungry, or I just think I am because I'm thinking about food so much. Hmmm...I am tapering this week for the urbanathlon, so I don't want to go overboard with the calories since I'm not burning much.

Here's my food log for the last two days:
Monday 10/11/10
7:30a
-2 eggs with 1 roma tomato, 1/2 c. salad greens
-handful of almonds
-1 tsp fish oil
11:30
-6 oz. cod with red pepper and onion
-small handful of walnuts
12:30p
-1 oz. turkey jerky
-1/4 Larabar (banana bread flavor)
-small handful walnuts
3:40p
-1 cup paleo chili
-2 TBS 2% Greek yogurt (I know--just can't give it up yet!)
-small handful almond slices
7:00p
-6 oz. baked wild salmon
-1/2 cup butternut squash
-2 TBS 2% Greek yogurt
Water intake: 42 oz--not enough!

Tuesday 10/12/10
7:30a
-2 egg whites with 1/2 c. spinach, 1 TBS EVOO, 1 TBS salsa
-2 slices uncured turkey bacon
-1 cup coffee with 2 TBS almond milk and 1/2 packet Splenda (I know, the devil)
10:00a
-1 oz. turkey jerky
-4 walnuts
1:00p
-Paleo chili
3:30p
-1 oz. turkey jerky
-4 almonds
6:30p
-Paleo chili
-1 Banana Bread Larabar
8:00
-1 hard boiled egg
-1 tsp fish oil
Water intake: 64 oz--close!